I have not blogged in quite a while. I have been processing
what I am feeling and trying to figure out how to put into word everything that
is going.
About three and a half years ago, I began to get sick
frequently. I would develop an infection and then my asthma would go critical.
Over time the infections got closer and closer together and my asthma got
worse. This spring, they began to look at my immune system for answers and …. They
got answers. It seems that my immune system has some missing elements in it.
Now they are beginning the process to begin gamma globulin immune therapy.
Today I filled out the paperwork to begin the process and I should hear from
the drug company in a couple of weeks.
How do I feel about all of this? I feel …. All kinds of
things. I am relieved that there might finally be a solution and an end to the
constant illness. I am hopeful for a future where I begin to once again do all
of the things that bring me joy and life. I am afraid … afraid that this will
not work, that I will continue to get sicker and sicker. I am afraid that the
treatments will make me horribly sick.
But in spite of everything I am feeling I am choosing hope
as the feeling that I am standing on. I choose hope.
And hope is always the right decision.
Just Connie
1 comment:
Connie I am so glad you have felt like you are ready to comment on this. I know it is scary and a whole new thing. You know I love you and continue to pray for you and about this.
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