There are times that the hurts of the past seem to flood my present. Today was one of those days. It seemed like such a simple conversation, but yet there it was .... the past leaping up and grabbing me by the throat. I sat there and fought tears as I tried to find a graceful way out of the conversation. In the end there was no grace to it, I just sat there and cried.
Most of the time I feel like a competent, confident woman, but when the past intrudes .... it fills me with insecurities and pain. Unwanted and unexpected yet there it is.
So what do I do with this stuff that I am feeling? My natural instinct is to pull back and hide, yet experience has taught me that is not healthy or wise. And as much as I would like to wave a magic wand over the hurt and make it go away, I think the only way through it is to feel what I am feeling and take another step forward.
So tonight I am choosing to feel and choosing to believe that there is hope for tomorrow.
Just Connie
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