I think my brain is on overload. The conference has been good, but as always they keep you very busy. Workshops, general sessions, meeting new people, vendors, new products and ideas …. I’m just trying to keep up with the frenetic pace that information is coming at me. I have attended training workshops for strategic planning, community relations, team building, evaluation, spiritual development ... well the list is much longer. It is a fire hose of information. I look forward to implementing some of what I learned and I just hope that I retain the important parts.
Through it all, I have been struggling with such a deep sense of sadness and loss. What I really want to do is to curl up on my bed and cry. This latest interaction with Gerrald has flooded me with a fresh sense of grief and the searing reality of the immensity of this loss. However, there is no time to grieve, I have meetings to attend and people to meet. I am forced to smile, be gracious and do my very best to pay attention.
But perhaps that is a good thing. It might be that I need to do less crying and more living, less grieving and more celebrating. But in honesty today I just want to cry. I am thankful that God loves me right where I am. He understands the hurt of my heart, and offers comfort and hope for a new tomorrow.
"Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the LORD will do amazing things among you” Joshua 3:5
I am soooo ready for an amazing tomorrow. How come tomorrow’s can’t come today?
Just Connie
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