False Guilt

I think I am still fighting the last lingering effects of the virus battle. I have spent the entire day sleeping. It is a beautiful sunny day and I had so much on my list to get done today. Instead I have spent it curled up on my bed with dogs. It is 8:00 at night now and I am just beginning to think about my undone “to do” list.

Sigh … I guess I should not be feeling so guilty. Sometimes it is just hard to keep all the balls I am juggling up in the air. This virus has really impacted my ability to keep it all going. I try to tell myself that it is not the end of the world, but I have to admit that I do not like having things in disarray. I want to feel more on top of things than this. I feel guilty regardless. Then I feel guilty for feeling guilty.

“let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water” Hebrews 10:22

The bottom line is that these undone tasks are not wrong, they are just an outcome of how I am feeling. This is self imposed guilt, not true guilt for wrong doing. So tonight I reject that false guilt and I will continue to let my body heal as I prepare my heart and head for tomorrow’s services. As always God’s grace will do the job if I will just allow it.