He didn’t show up. My husband never showed up for our scheduled meeting today. After all that stress & worry he didn't even show up or call. I am steamed, I am worried … I am confused.
I began calling after he was 30 minutes late. I called for 4 hours and have had no response. I honestly do not know what to think. Did he have car problems? Did he change his mind? Is he too drunk to come? It could be any of those things or none of those things.
I am surprised at how distressed I am about this. I am hoping that he is okay and there is a reasonable excuse to not show up and not call. I have found myself pacing the room and I am having trouble focusing on anything but the fact that he didn’t show up. I keep trying to step back form this emotionally, but I have to admit I am struggling.
So what now? I guess I need to remember that I cannot change Gerrald. I can only change myself. I do not think there is anything I can do about him not showing up. It is completely outside my control. But there is something I can do about how I am responding to it. I need to seek God’s heart and find peace right where I am at. Because this turmoil is eating away at me and I cannot lose heart and focus. Regardless of what kept Gerrald, God has peace for me this evening.
“A heart at peace gives life to the body” Proverbs 14:30
It is time for peace. God’s grace is enough for me, God’s grace is enough for me …. God’s grace is enough for me. I choose life.
Just Connie
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